You/Him (Maybe)

Happy happened when we were doing other things
I still feel your hand sliding up my knee
Softly, softly

Makes me look at dead flowers and want to cry
Because I didn't look hard enough while they were still alive

You watered my heart like summer fruit
Nurtured me 'til I grew
Until I was too ripe for you
Fell into the arms of someone new

Rhythmically I erase your name
From the places that I see every day
The memories start to fade
The way you look at me changes

You were a big city trapped in a small town
With sacred places I learned and I loved well
He was a small town trapped in a big city
He couldn't cut himself to fit, so he tried to cut me

You were a big city trapped in a small town
With sacred places I learned and I loved well
He was a small town trapped in a big city
He couldn't cut himself to fit, so he tried to cut me
He tried to cut me, he tried to cut me

Maybe when you're not a thousand miles away
We can make out in your car on some musicless day
Maybe by then we'll be ready
We can pretend it's the first time

The day you knew you were synesthetic
You sensed the way I tugged on his jacket
I loved you more than that, even then
I always loved you more than him

You were a big city trapped in a small town
With sacred places I learned and I loved well
You were a small town trapped in a big city
He couldn't cut himself to fit, so he tried to cut me

You were a big city trapped in a small town
With sacred places I learned and I loved well
You were a small town trapped in a big city
He couldn't cut himself to fit, so he tried to cut me
He tried to cut me, he tried to cut me