Grow in the Shade

On one hand, get up and join the fray
On the other, sleep all though the day
What a wonderful day to stay inside
And admire the inside of my eyes
I'd get up and own my responsibility
But I can't seem to move, I guess I blame gravity

And I know
It's hard to change
So I'll grow in the shade
And hope my petals bloom

I'd get up and go, gather my remaining energy
But it's hard to roam when your roots are stuck firmly
Clock hands spin round
They're the only thing that's moving in this room
And the time's always quarter to gloom

And I'll reap
What I sow
Which is zero
But climbing (Is a drain)
And falling (Is nothing)
So I guess (I'm earthbound)
Always going down, down, down

And I know
Somethings got to change
Can't grow in the shade
But I can't elevate from this state, I'm doomed to stagnate

I'd get up and go, gather my remaining energy
But it's hard to roam when your roots are stuck firmly
Clock hands spin round
They're the only thing that's moving in this room
And the time's always quarter to gloom

Blending in with the background noises
They don't forget their voices
And yet I'm so remorseless
(I'm not feeling anything)
Is this all completely hopeless?
Surely every day can't be like this?
Even with my eyes closed it's tunnel vision of the abyss

But a day will come, and it will be
The day that lifts the clouds on my self-hating fantasy

I'll show my might, crush my plight
Nothing will stand in my way
But all this excitement's worn me out, maybe another day