Lovestale

Written July-Nov of 2004

In the night I can't escape what I fear.
Another dream of you cold and crystal clear.
It's the same dead end I'm always hanging by a string.
It's the same old thing I can't escape inside a dream.

These words you hear, but you just don't understand.
The music drowns me out; sinking in the sand.
Will my message ever get on through?
Will these words ever resonate in you?

I go invisible; you do not hear what I say.
I don't exist to you; I only fade away.
Everybody takes a piece of you.
Everybody gets a piece of you.

My days are cold, and the nights are dark and grey.
I'm tired of watching you; I got to break away.
I'm always falling into places left unseen.
I'm always calling no one there to rescue me.

So you think you control the game?
No such thing if I've chosen not to play!
Are you feeling out of place with me ever-changing face?

So you think you have control?
Take everything and lose control!
Because I'm seeing through the lie, and I'm seeing through you.

If there was something new for me to see.
But it's just the same old ways that be.
It's getting hard to breathe, it's getting hard to see.
And I don't want you standing close to me.

If there was something you could say to me
to make me change my mind once more.
Just need to find the door, I've had enough for sure.
And I don't feel like living anymore.

So you think you know the night.
You can't leave here until you get it right.
Did something change while in a dream
when you were sleeping through the night.

Walking though my ways of fear.
Never understanding what you hear.
It was all meant for you, but you will never know...

If there was something new for me to see.
But it's just the same old ways that be.
It's getting hard to breathe, it's getting hard to see.
And I don't want you standing close to me.

If there was something you could say to me
to make me change my mind once more.
Just need to find the door, I've had enough for sure.
And I don't feel like living anymore.

I've reached the end of me, there's nothing left to say.
I cannot carry on; start to fade away.

No one believes I lived a life full of pain.
Trapped inside this emptiness. Auf Wiedersehen!

They never taught me how to love, they raised me with hate.
They sent me on a path of tired and desperate fate.

All that I wanted was taken from me.
Trapped in myself, cannot break free!
Left it behind; a safe place in mind.
Wasting my time as my life passes by!

Get me out of this nightmare! Don't want to be here anymore!