Reflect

Swinging baseball bats through the lava lamps. I, yeah
Now would you rather have a champ or a doormat? Huh?

Haven't seen you in a long while
When I was in it I was in it for the long haul
Nothing lasts forever
Call the pallbearer to carry whatever this is cause I can't anymore
Not a care in the world. Can we go back to that?
It was all fair in the war. It's a thin line from love
Funny how life works, not to dust artifacts
This the role I was assigned. Now its time to shrug it off
Heart guarded with 100 proof and a padlock
Still see me on top
I get it if you don't understand
I recognize there ain't no mercy for a wicked man like me
You liked it when I wicca-wicca
But the thing was you never considered the bigger picture
Neither of us listened, mutual prisoners
A callus stronger from the most painful blisters. Fade

Is this the end of everythang?
Please don't get so carried away
I was not put on this earth to obey
Need a red eye, Take a long flight, away
Ain't breaking my stride today
Good times are never a waste
Even if the pain and regrets is harder to forget
And now I reflect

Every euphoric moment paid back in aggregate
Resentment clouded perspective
Went from relieving stresses to being stresses
Passive aggressive power moves. Oh you think you house of cards now?
Although, everyone knows it falls apart at the end
Did those moments ever matter if it was never meant to be?
Uncompromising entities toxic together, call hazmat
No way DJ Dark Fade's bringing that shit back
Used to drop everything for you
Now it's a stalemate of who curved who
Trading hits to the nerves ain't a gunting
If it's all routine it's gotta be the right one
I got my own flaws I ain't righteous
It just wasn't the right fit
But it was still electric when I plugged in
Is your word still bond if the world's against me?
Emotions depleted, might be easier to delete
Grief and recover, get back on and repeat
We some lost again souls, made to be incomplete
We never received what we gave, it was easier to give up
Never knew a wise man who died for love
So you won't catch me in my feelings up in this club
Playing games you looking for Twitch subs
You switched up, I was stunned
You dont seek love, just wanted someone to fuck with and grudge on
I ain't trippin, but you pissed off. I had to peace out
Bliss lost as often as collapsing trees, don't always hear the sound
Pettiness, I thought we was better than that
Flow and adapt like good jazz
But I guess the mileage outlived the match
Looking back is a privilege
To relive a forlorn wish
Lessons from the ashes we salvage
May the mistakes guide us to a safer landing

Is this the end of everythang?
Please don't get so carried away
I was not put on this earth to obey
Need a red eye, Take a long flight, away
Ain't breaking my stride today
Good times are never a waste
Even if the pain and regrets is harder to forget
And now I reflect

Gambling like casino, I just can't say no to that face
No love lost just enchantment misplaced
Now we go separate ways in poker face
Another raindrop, another falling star
Pain without a cause, an invisible scar
Time will tell if it's a gift or a curse
I admit either or, I enjoyed the detour