Carrying

Yeah you know I was carrying so much
I never felt so wrong
Please don't judge me
Take my dignity away
But I be in a lot of trouble
Goin' in circles
And now I feel
I'm going so mad

Damn right I'm insane
Yet I still stand upright & keep fighting the pain I've got a cyberist brain
I use my mind like a computer on line with a powerful router
And a connection only found in the future
I've got everything I need to enlighten the game
Everyone I meet is so frightened and tame compared to me
I see them stare at me
And I ain't even a scary g
It's just anyone weaker would of tear at the seams
If they'd been where I've been
I've seen a lot of things that are rare to see
Anyway I keep it forward motion
When I need to I lean on naughty potions
I might come across too cold and hard
But just like you, I'm flawed with emotions

Yeah you know I was carrying so much
I never felt so wrong
Please don't judge me
Take my dignity away
But I be in a lot of trouble
Goin' in circles
Now I feel
I'm going so mad
You Don't know

What's the first thing that goes through your head when you're awake
Me, I feel like a mistake
I can't take another look in that mirror
The figure looking back has a face I wanna break
What do you know about self hatred
Feeling like a red pill trapped in the matrix
When you got a stack of family catastrophes
You can't give a crap about day to day basics
I hate it. I wish I could remove my memory chip and erase it
But that's not yet possible in this day and age so
I guess I'll just face it
Anyway I keep it positive moves
When I need to I lean on dodgy fumes
Yeah I'm carrying a lot but I cannot stop being Jot
I know what I got, I'm on top of these goons

I am nothing
Sorry I sang
I am always oh so wrong
Now I can
Now I can get mine



Credits
Writer(s): Jot Mcnamee
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