Birthday Kid

It's like we're a bunch of lonely people
Testing the limit to see how much pain we can bear

Honestly I don't know how I got so far
I did this to me
I did this to me
There is no one else to blame
I did it myself

I did this to me
I did this to me
I did this to me
I did this to me
I wish it was your fault
I wish it was your fault
But how could it be, oh
But how could it be, oh
I did this to me

Sometimes I can't move at all
Unless I'm certain that I'm following the right path
The right path

In my dreams, you praised me and clapped
Then mommy said,
"It's alright, there's always next time
You did your best"
It's like we're a bunch of lonely people
Testing the limit to see how much pain we can bear
Not too much and not too little
So the world feels much more familiar

And the only reason I could carry on is thanks to
My imaginary children, great-great grandchildren
Singing in front of my hundred birthday cake
Saying they are glad
Saying they are proud
Of what I've accomplished in my time
It's all but a dream
It's all but a dream
It's all but a dream

I did this to me
I did this to me
I did this to me
I did this to me
There is no more mommy
There is no more daddy
I'll take it head on
Yeah I'll take it head on
'Cause I did this to me