Clouded

I shut my eyes but still see the memories
Playing back like a black and white movie
Try to clear my mind but you're still standing
And I don't feel a thing

Can we go back in time
Can we relive those nights
No place to hide in all the city lights
When you were the only view in sight

Day by day
Night after night
I lay awake alone in my mind
So many feelings
That slowly lose meaning
And i just wish
Just wish they were dead
And i just wish
Just wish they were dead

You play the user
I might as well be the game
I'll always be the loser
Cause it's all the fucking same

Holding on has never been so hard

Can we go back in time
Can we relive those nights
No place to hide in all the city lights
When you were the only view in sight

I need to find a way to escape my head
I've hit a dead end and I'm sick of playing pretend
Nothing feels the way it did back then
What do I have to do to feel whole again

I try to push this away
You won't leave me alone
I'm still lost in the haze
And never felt more on my own
It's what we've made
And it's all we know
I can't seem to bring myself
To let this go

Let this go

I see you coming closer now
I feel your cold breath on my neck
But you're not here
You were never there
I've never felt so far away from you