I Recorded This on My Phone Right Before I Gave Up

I lost my reason to live
I been so numb and I ain't feeling shit
Look at my wrist like what if it was slit
Go to sleep never wake up in abyss
My life is something you could never get
Momma she told me I could never quit
Hiding my pain cuz I already did
Gave it my all still got nothing to give
Distance myself never talk to my fam
I don't explain cuz you won't understand
Battles in my head don't know who I am
I won't go on cuz I know that I can't
Life is a bitch then you die
Fuck myself till I bleed then suicide
Lost all my hope no glisten in my eye
Drown in my tears give in to my demise
Run for my life like it was a relay
Ask how I'm doing I said I'm okay
Stuck in my thoughts I could never escape

Let me live in this hell
Can't save me from myself
Even when they pushed me
I got up when I fell
I'm alone but I still
Played the cards that I'm dealt
No one even knows me
Or the the way that I felt

Why the fuck I'm gonna run if I could fly
I ain't gonna make it if I never try
Remember days when I didn't wanna carry on
I coulda gave up on myself but no I'm not that kinda guy
I ain't have no hope, I ain't feel alive
Appreciate my fans that was down to ride
I'm speaking everything about my life into this music
So that even if you kill me I would never die
I ain't ever doubted myself
Even through the hardests times I wasn't down on myself
I was running outta gas but I was stuck in a shell
Now I'm rapping for the hopeless who be needing my help
I said, I ain't ever doubted myself
Even through the hardests times I wasn't down on myself
Everynight I was alone but I relied on myself
Even through the hardests times I never doubted myself

Let me live in this hell
Can't save me from myself
Even when they pushed me
I got up when I fell
I'm alone but I still
Played the cards that I'm dealt
No one even knows me
Or the the way that I felt

Or the way that I felt