Defeatist

Fuck HBox
Yo, sometimes life is really a bitch
And really, fuck her

Fuck my life, everything going to shit
Stressing out just trynna make a fucking hit
When someone does better I only do good
Tell me how the fuck am I supposed to stay up out the hood
When my grade is fucking F it feels like someone else is worse
And when I do something great someone did it first
Feel no point in giving any more effort
'Cause I'm always wrong when I say it really can't hurt
Making the worst from the best
Can't ever beat out the rest
My shit sounds like ass
Pass on the shit like a test
I'll always be trying, not even lying
But in the end I'll just wanna be dying
But for now I can't so I finna rant
'Cause life is shit I'll stay as (A man)

I'm standing here like a dumbass, facts
Caught in a trap no cap, slap
Ran out of water no tap I'm flat
Life runs me over, all these burns on my shoulder
Feels like a boulder, (Sis fits) it's ubiquitous
Everything I do is so insignificant
Stuck in my own little form of imprisonment
Nothing comes together it's dissonant
My impeding failure is imminent

Depression is ubiquitous

Innervation, aggravation, I freeze myself to avoid the stimulation
Looking for some paradise I'll keep going for the sacrifice
Feeling like I'm burning in Hell bet you watched me as I completely fell
These chills crawling up my spine, but my veins are on fire without the light
I'm spinning out of control, take your words like Adderall
(Burning out my life,) put me down you cry
Say I'm sick (Dissonant) it's unfair
You'll hate me when you're aware

When failure is imminent, when all you're doing's giving in
Depression is ubiquitous, insecurities digging in
Someone tell me who the victim is or how I'm in this predicament
Caught a body now, how the fuck do I get rid of him?
Child in me died, I know I wasn't kidding him
Back against the wall, imma break the bricks down
Sucked at baseball, but I'm making hits now
I just got the game I cannot quit now
Try to keep my head up when it's always been down
I regroup, recollect, gotta meet with new connects
I lost some old friends but don't care who's next
Double-edged, I'm my own biggest asset and threat



Credits
Writer(s): Patrick Chatelain
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