Numb

Worst things come to worst
I fucking die a tragic
Death or some shit
And, I'm not able to
See out my dreams
I at least, want to know
That the kids, perceived my message
And were able to make something of themselves
And able to take my message
And use it
And turn it into something positive
And to at least have a good life
Good life
Good life...

I just need to be alone right now
I'm so numb to the world right now
It's like I wanna live but then i let my head
I'm just wishing that these people could
Really feel my pain right now
And now they see me smile
But I'm just really lost tryina find myself right now
So please pay attention what I say is all real
When I write it down
I wanna stand up but I've fallen back down
Now my life's crashing down
Wondering what im gonna do now
What am I gonna do next
I'm tryina prove myself to these people I'm the next best
But I'm really just stressed and depressed
So I light another cigarette

With 10 papers worth of regrets
And I'm writing in my car 'til the sun sets
And I'm playing these beats til the feeling gets
Surreal

Yeah
I'm so numb, ya
I'm so numb, ya
I'm so numb to this world right now
I'm so numb, ya
I'm so numb, ya
I'm so numb

Ay
Maybe you should walk a day in my shoes
And maybe you would feel the judging that these
People put me through
And maybe you would understand my sudden change in mood
And you think I'm being numb to the feeling when a person hurt you
But I'm not
Suprise
Yeah we hanging up a phone getting blown up by 20 guys
I sip a bitch, full of lies with some angel eyes
But she the devil in disguise
Yeah
Yeah
Red roses on my grave
Looking to the sky
My daddy's gone, I aint even tell him "bye"
This silver cross on my neck
Asking God why I'm fucking wearing 21st
I just watch him fly
I just sit back and I cry
Write another line
Tryina push some food down my stomach
Like the???
I'm so numb
I don't wanna see the sunshine

Yeah
I'm so numb, ya
I'm so numb, ya
I'm so numb to this world right now
I'm so numb, ya
I'm so numb, ya
I'm so numb

Yeah
What is?
Like what you all dont understand about my music
Is that when I say im "Numb" like
I have to drown out all the hate
That's drawn my way
Just so that I can...
You know, try to pursue this dream that I have
And
And it's hard cause like, my thoughts start rushing
When I get this anxiety that like...
Takes over my body
And I'll just be driving down the road
And
My face just goes numb
Cause my thoughts are racing
And that's why I wrote this song
Cause I just get numb, like I have to block out all that pain
You know?
So...
That's why...
That's why I'm feeling so...
Feeling so...

Yeah
I'm so numb, ya
I'm so numb, ya
I'm so numb to this world right now
I'm so numb, ya
I'm so numb, ya
I'm so numb
End it