All Out

When I close my eyes I can't seem to sleep
I've only been down twice in the past two weeks
I'm ghosted I'm ghosting I'm open and I'm closing I'm okay
Wait

The world's so loud and the light never ends
Until it spreads to my soul and the darkness descends
The world just seems so bright through the blinds to my mind
That the thought of you makes it dark and silent in side
But I'm not gonna lose you
Or the thought and the feeling that life doesn't batter and bruise too
I'm scared for the life of my that the life of you is limited
But I get I'm wrong cos it's infinite

And now I see it cos it's all out in the open
Of all the things I thought were fixed
Turns out they're old and broken
Come with me and bury all the things we want to hide
I know I asked you
But you could never pull me off that ride

It's all a mess
I can feel it in waves now burning up through my chest
I feel so shit alone all the time it makes me weak
But I'm not alone I suppose only when I sleep
I can't believe this is happening to me again
All along I guess it matters to me that you're my friend
I said I'd be there for you until the end
Do you need me now?
Do you need me now?

Look at this is it irrelevant
All those times we looked so elegant
All those times we couldn't care less
And through the night we didn't scream less

Parasitic paralytic waves of pure anxiety
Swallowing my future and it's changing how I manage this
Fucking up the chances and the patience that you're giving me
I swear it's gonna be great you've got to wait and see

And now I see it cos it's all out in the open
Of all the things I thought were fixed
Turns out they're old and broken
Come with me and bury all the things we want to hide
I know I asked you
But you could never pull me off that ride
And all the times I thought that I was lost without you
And all the times that you weren't there
I wished that I'd have called you
You light me up you let me down
I hit the roof you're on the ground
Let's buckle up cos
I'm gonna take you on another ride