It's Not the Same as It Felt Before

We're drinking coffee
And brushing shoulders
With the gate keepers of our future
I'm begging god to please let this one finally stay

I hope I'm not playing into somebody's nonsense
I need to say this
I can't play favorites
Everyone I love wants for me to run away

There's only so much space
Now displaced from the momentum I had through a slippery slope down
(I hope I can handle this change)

Tunnel vision led to blinding myself
From finding this help to be less than what I hoped for through this static sound
(I hope I can handle this change)

There's no such thing as a private life anymore
Bedroom floor has become an alter to a new tomorrow
(I hope I can handle this change)

When I only envision, when my eyes are closed tightly
It's slightly irritating
No, I can't take another harsh blow until I understand this time is borrowed
Time is borrowed

I felt so completed but was left defeated
It's not the same as it felt before
I broke with the seasons and changed what I needed
It's not the same as it felt before

I felt so completed but was left defeated
It's not the same as it felt before
I broke with the seasons and changed what I needed
It's not the same as it felt before

Hope is what happens when your mind is too distracted
To realize the fleeting feelings might be real
Just because something is tangible doesn't mean it will handle well
We can still easily steer this right off a hill

I'll buy into your sense of freedom if you promise to believe them
When my demons tell you that I could never change that lashing out in my own purpose
I know when it'll be worth it to finally accept that I might be ok
I'll be ok