Inside My Mind

I don't want to stand alone
Cause sometimes, sometimes I feel just like I do
Like it's me against the world even when I've got you
So I've tried to hide this bit chip off my shoulder
That only time will heal

It's time to show you what goes on inside my head
The kind of shit that makes me never get ahead
The kind of shit that made my scars bleed red
The kind of shit that makes me wish I was dead
Full of anxiety and hurt
Always scared they'll desert me
Try and hide it with a mask
And just put on a smile
It's so hard every day
Rethinking everything I say
I'm so scared of the rain
Tynna hide from the pain
Terrified that I'll never be good enough
So scared cause the seas so fucking rough
Just try and play it off tough
But it's all just a bluff
I put my own hurt aside
To see my loved ones smile
But when Im in my mind
All I wanna do is cry
Tears running down my cheek
I just feel so weak
(Please save me)

I don't want to stand alone
Cause sometimes, sometimes I feel just like I do
Like it's me against the world even when I've got you
So I've tried to hide this bit chip off my shoulder
That only time will heal

Feel so helpless and scared
I'm overrun by my worst fear
Of never being enough
The fear of letting them down
The fear of being so fucking alone
The fear of losing everyone that I know
I try and fight what goes on in my mind
A constant battles with the demons inside
I try to put it in a verse, put it on a track
But it just brings me down, always pushes me back
I just wanna be okay
I'm so sick of the pain
I sink a script just to numb
What goes on in my brain
Always coming off second best
To the rest
Why is every day
Such an emotional test
I'm sitting and I'm drinking
As I'm overthinking
Wishing that I didn't
As the razor blade glistens
The tears start to fall
As the blood hits the floor
I fucking did it again
It just never end

I don't want to stand alone
Cause sometimes, sometimes I feel just like I do
Like it's me against the world even when I've got you
So I've tried to hide this bit chip off my shoulder
That only time will heal

Rolling cigarette after cigarette
Drinking just to forget
I fade away until there's nothing left
Crimson on the blade
It doesn't make things change
But still I go and do it again and again
Every day
I've got only my self left to blame
The never ending cycle
And it's driving me insane
Take a pill to help me sleep
Make me feel complete
When I miss a dose
Then I fall into pieces
Addictions addictions
Just wish this would quit
I'm always so anxious
It's making me sick
Fill my lungs up with smoke
Just to cope with the static
Inside of my head
As it fucking collapses
My mind is like a grave
Where the dead man raves
Pulling strings like a puppeteer
Laughing as he breeds fear
Pop another pill
I'm going downhill
The shower runs red
As the blood spills

I don't want to stand alone
Cause sometimes, sometimes I feel just like I do
Like it's me against the world even when I've got you
So I've tried to hide this bit chip off my shoulder
That only time will heal