Heavy Shit

I've got this window in my house
Knows me better than I know myself
Could probably charge me $150 an
hour for all the heavy shit I poor out
I get these voices in my brain
Feels like I'm part of a new strain
I get the stubborn "stupid and useless"
You get the heavy shit I poor out

So here I am trynna figure where it all went wrong
Feel like a ghost in my own damn home
Starting to wonder how I got so numb to this heavy shit I poor out
Bottoming bottles in the mirror when I'm on my own
Feel like I'm lost in my own damn bones
Can someone tell me how I got so numb to this heavy shit I poor out

They tell me "well this is all part of life you see,"
But the world keeps circling 'round me
No, can't seem to stop being so hard on myself
Hence all the shit I poor out
Still haven't found what I'm looking for
No, all of these people keep closing doors
They tell me "You can't keep holding all this
shit to yourself, go find a way to let it poor out."

So here I am trynna figure where it all went wrong
Feel like a ghost in my own damn home
Starting to wonder how I got so numb to this heavy shit I poor out
Bottoming bottles in the mirror when I'm on my own
Feel like I'm lost in my own damn bones
Can someone tell me how I got so numb to this heavy shit I poor out

So here I am
So here I am like a ghost in my own home again
With this heavy shit I poor out
So come on let it poor out
All the heavy shit I poor out
Let it poor out
All the heavy shit I poor out

So here I am trynna figure where it all went wrong
Feel like a ghost in my own damn home
Starting to wonder how I got so numb to this heavy shit I poor out
Bottoming bottles in the mirror when I'm on my own
Feel like I'm lost in my own damn bones
Can someone tell me how I got so numb to this heavy shit I poor out

So here I am
So here I am
So here I am
Can someone tell me how I got so numb to this heavy shit I poor out
So here I am
So here I am
So here I am
Can someone tell me how I got so numb to this heavy shit I poor out