Moving On

I try to calm the inflation of my own expectations
Keep my inhibitions under wraps
But in my mind I know that I
Can't stop them when they arise
It's just a part of me I can't hold back
So when I'm thinking of what's coming next
I try not to expect the best
But I always fill my heart with sweetest hope
Then I'm surprised and die inside
When no good things materialise
And the bitter truth makes it hard to cope

I will move on
Let it go
I'll let everyone know
That defeat made me strong
And if it takes a thousand days
I will surely find a place
Where for once I won't get it wrong

The worst part is before you're told
Your anxieties are manifold
You don't know who to turn to for respite
You're sitting home, you're all alone
And twisted thoughts from the unknown
Like monsters, come to tear and claw and bite
It happens all the time I know
I'm not the only one to show
Sadness when my work gets no return
This hollow feeling in my chest
Keeps me from ever getting rest
But my failures are my fuel
Just watch them burn

I will move on
Let it go
I'll let everyone know
That defeat made me strong
And if it takes a thousand days
I will surely find a place
Where for once I won't get it wrong