Grateful

Give me my daily bread I swear I'm still hungry
Put on my cakey-face still feeling super bummy
Ain't got no money, but hey, I got some friends
And some brothers from the ends who would bet on me times ten
My clothes aren't logo'd, my mind be going loco
Feel like I don't belong here, man get up outta here and go-go
I got a church to go on Sundays
And Sunday's a great day
Don't look forward to Mondays
I let my heart beat, without thinking bout why it's beating
Still focused on the fact that my demons are still creeping
I swear they're never sleeping, it's hard for me to get the sleep in
Sometimes what I believe in feels just like some distant dreaming
Dreams and reality are two different terms
And my conditions don't need to dictate whether my spirit still burns
And yeah, this life hurts, but I'm happy to be hurting
Let my worries out and put the work in

I just wanna be grateful
And I just wanna be thankful
I just wanna be grateful
And I just wanna be thankful

But it's hard to be

Looking for ways to make sense of this
Whether it's really worth the pain or worth the risk
I wanna take my hand and fold I swear I'm folding inside
I swear I, I swear I'm crying inside
I put my hands together, feels like there's so much friction
My head gets to turning and conjuring up these fictions
Of how you could save me, pluck me out of my mess
And take me to somewhere that's just better than this
Like you're my rocket ship
I'm stepping on rocks I slip
And I panic and lose my grip
Take a step, stumble and slip
I'm in a Q, what's my tip
Sit down and wait your turn
One day your win will come
Till then you let these L's burn
Like incense, but it just don't make sense
I don't mean to take offense
But I'm just on offence mode, I gotta
Sit back and realise that I'm here for a reason
Cause this winter only lasts for a season

I just wanna be grateful
And I just wanna be thankful
I just wanna be grateful
And I just wanna be thankful

I don't climb these mountains to be satisfied
I climb them cause my demons they just gotta die
And yeah I'm terrified, I'm terrified to fall
From this highness, I look to Your Highness
Cause yeah, I've had good times and yeah I've had bad
And yeah I've been joyful and yeah I've been mad
And I have times I wanna die to my vice
But I died once, I don't need to die twice
Man only some will get it
But don't forget it, Malcolm already said it
I crossed out sin for his cross, and I'll never regret it
And some think I'm pathetic, and some just see the craft
And put respect on the graft, they know it's all heart
Ain't got much but I'm grateful
I won't be distasteful
But I won't rest until me and the crew's plates full
The plan right now is to put me in check
I'll take respect and then I'll cash it in cheques

Till then I'm gonna be grateful
Till then I'm gonna be thankful
Till then I'm gonna be grateful
Till then I'm gonna be thankful

From South East to new ends now, Uni student in the midlands
Become a Dual Brand Ambassador, and model out there
Finally posting singing on my insta, I might be a musician
But with four wheels and an engine boy it's a love affair
Also learned other righteous ways to get my money up now
Could you believe 2 weeks before baptism, I fully tried to do squares
Now I'm catching fades without conflict, opps would probably come to the door
Like yo g, you really need to fix man's hair
I got you bro, come inside cause I know
Someone above it all got me
It's not an eye for an eye ting, it's more like if I eat you eat, you dig
Just a '98 baby, but it really feels like 2019 made me
Back on track with my faith and, more opportunities await me
Gratitude is really something I be out here learning daily
Since the Lord came into my life and since he dun saved me
Maybe being grateful is the only way of living that can change me

And I can't teach you
You gotta learn yourself
Find your wings and fly
And don't sit on the shelf