I Don't Wanna Be You

If we're counting sins, then I'll start with mine
Not perfect, said this a dozen times
I look in the mirror, only see the fear of
Falling down and under in these darkened eyes
Try to tell myself don't worry 'bout it Cause I got the talent so I have to make it
But the facts are simply when it comes to rap
That I can be the best still stuck in Mama's basement

Every waking moment know I'm thinking 'bout
The chance that I just never make it big
Every song I write I wonder if my heart is really
Meant to find its place in this
Take a second to stop and reflect and try to tell myself it's what I say it is
That I know I'm great and I control my fate
And I just hope and pray that everything I spit

Ain't just mindless positivity speech
Not just speaking fake to make and believe
Not just hollow like an empty bottle but
I'm full of hope that I can reach all my dreams
Full of hope that I don't need the dope
And I don't need the guns and I don't the need the lean
That my heart that's beating to the music beat
So I can rock this beat is all I really need

So when the doubt starts dripping down, and I feel it all I get anxious
Cause I know the slope to me losing hope is so slippery and it's dangerous
I'm scared to see if I don't succeed cause I don't know how I'd change it
Stuck on repeat, let's just stop the beat
This ain't rap, it's just conversation

I don't wanna be you
I don't wanna be you, you, you
I don't wanna be you
I don't wanna be you, you, you

I wanna be the me looking towards tomorrow
Not caught up in the past cause our time is borrowed
I wanna be true
I don't wanna be you, you, you

If we're counting sins then my number's higher
Than the views a girl gets for losing clothes
Raising higher like smoke and fire from a
Burning building with no fire hose
Higher still if I'm being real 'cause I've sinned a lot only heaven knows
How many times I've cried
Swearing up and down that I've got no chance and should drop my goals

Bury pain inside my broken chest and
If you look into it I'm an empty cage
Only seem to find my rhyme and reason when
I pour my heart out while I'm on the stage
Take a pen and I can rap about it
Fill up every book, fill up every page
Rap about my rage, rap about the game
Now I'm taking aim, fill this track with lead

Family says that they love what I do
Friends say that I'm fresh and I'm new
Fans say, what do fans say? Cause I'm sans fans got no fans fool
I'm just making music that's ain't like the music
That a lot of people love to dance to
And it leads to thinking that my ship is sinking
From the weights of doubting in this sand pool

So when the doubt starts dripping down, and I feel it all I get anxious
Cause I know the slope to me losing hope is so slippery and it's dangerous
I'm scared to see if I don't succeed Cause I don't know how I'd change it
Stuck on repeat let's just stop the beat
This ain't rap, it's just conversation

I don't wanna be you
I don't wanna be you, you, you
I don't wanna be you
I don't wanna be you, you, you

I wanna be the me looking towards tomorrow
Not caught up in the past cause our time is borrowed
I wanna be true
I don't wanna be you, you, you

They tell me to fake it this smile ain't real
Told Mama I'd make it too caught in my feels
Don't know my direction can't track my progression
Can't handle this pressure someone take the wheel

Doubt after doubt after doubt in my mind
Scared of the future and what I might find
Maybe I'm stupid and wasting my time
Wasting my time

I don't wanna be you
I don't wanna be you, you, you
I don't wanna be you
I don't wanna be you, you, you

I wanna be the me looking towards tomorrow
Not caught up in the past cause our time is borrowed
I wanna be true
I don't wanna be you, you, you