Look for the Woman

There's a weight over me today
Something I have to say
Love you too much to leave
Don't like you enough stay

My head's in a mess and I'm stressed
But I guess it's a test in this quest for happiness
and the rest of that mess so I'd best just aquiescue
Even though I've grown tired of you

And that ain't meant sound spiteful
I'm just trying to be insightful
When I write all my emotions in the night
All the stuff I try to fight will just come out
And the sad fact is; I'm so tired of you

Love, It's a weird thing ain't it?
There's no way to explain it
But I swear as well as pain
There should be joy but we sustain
the same level of mundane
And it's numbing me through

I Often wonder if I'd miss you
As to have the urge to kiss you
When an issue has to hit through
To this heart that now feels disused
And said issue was to big to just ignore
And I walked out on you

But chances are I'd fall apart
And suffer seizures of the heart
As my chest begins to smart
The very second I'd depart
I want to go back to the start
But then again, maybe I'd just feel new

Maybe I'd get my life on track
and start to focus my attack
On all the things my life just lacks
And start to claw my passion back
Instead of living like hack,
Half commited, half relaxed
I'd have nothing to lose.

There's a weight over me today
Something I have to say
Love you too much to leave
Don't like you enough to stay

I guess lately I've had to much time to think
And, yeah, Way to much to drink
When paper meets the ink
Overthinking is the chink in my armor
That's just what I do.
And I've always been that way
Forever questioning each day
And every plea that's made that maybe when I lay my busy mind will make me prove
by finding problems and reasons that might not even be true

See, we got togather so young, before our real lives had begun
but flowers don't grow up as one,
each finds it's own way to the sun
And that's exactly what we've done,
We've grown up seperately too,

And for a few years now, It's been a problem
And these realizations, I wish that I could stop them
But I've realized that love is all we have in common
And deep down you know that's true.

But then surely that I'm still in love with you
Means there's something we can do to get us through and to pursue a brand new poin of view on how this gap grew between me and you

So There's a weight over me and I'd hate to have to leave
But in fate I don't believe
And the state of you and me
Isn't great as you can see
So I'll keep thinking this through.

There's a weight over me today
It's something I have to say
Love you too much to leave
Don't like you enough to stay