Imagination

It's all for nothing
Everything I've done
Drowning under water
Thinking, what have I become?
I can't feel a thing
Fuck, I think I'm going numb
Maybe I'm insane
I'm just not enough
Crying out for help, but this isn't an act
I been broken, I feel hopeless
Damn it, this is a fact
It's like why you think I always spit my pain these tracks
Because I'm running from myself
I write this shit to relax
Maybe I was made in somebody's imagination
Listen, you don't know me, you're not in my situation
There's things going on here, they need examination
And nobody but me will ever know that information
I lost certain things that will never be restored
Everybody leaves me, my life's an open door
It saddens me to say this
But when it rains, it pours
How do I survive in the eye of the storm?
How can love exist, if there's no one that expresses it
Everybody's hurting, look around you for the evidence
Suicide is something that's becoming too repetitive
Do I got the will to keep on going?
That's a negative

I'm so understanding, I see life from different angles
But these people all around me love to give everyone labels
As if they themselves are angels
Picture perfect, wearing halos
Hypocritical and ignorant, until you turn the tables on em'
Fuck em' all, I never wanna fit in with em'
Fuck that, I just want a break for a second
Where the drugs at?
I don't feel a thing when I'm faded, and I love that
I forget it all when I'm gone, and I love that

Yeah
Under such a dark sky, I'm standing by a payphone
Examining my fears, cause' I know I gotta face those
Everyone's a fraud, cause' they pick and choose what they show
I do what I want
Instead of doing what they say so
Turning into nothingness, I'm stuck in zero gravity
Lately my life alter my perception of reality
I wonder if somebody way above is just imagine me
My mind is playing games, and my story is a tragedy
I speak for those who can't, I've been playing devil's advocate
I never wanted anything, I think I'm here on accident
I try to stop the bleeding
And I try to be compassionate
But you can't understand me unless you know about abandonment
It's D.R.B. for short
Motherfucker that's the acronym
I never been good enough
I'm bad and I'm inadequate
They see me as a villain
Like I'm some sort of antagonist
I got a black heart, and plus my energy is cancerous
I went from bad to worse
And damn the damage hurts
I'm in a sea of flames
With every wave it bursts
I'm a burden to myself
And I got so many concerned
I thought I could be happy
But I guess I'll never learn