I Tried

I just wish I could live life
Without wanting to resign
Maybe someday I'll be fine
But I can't keep my state of mind
Some days I take looks at life
But I can't see it cause I'm blind
Things I see I don't have sight
But if there's one thing that I know
It's that I tried

Back in session waiting for succession
Feel like every song I'm making makes me look pathetic
People come up to me knowing that I'm sympathetic
But I know that I'm acting and I'm empathetic
Going left to right with my mind think it's ambidextrous
Knew that my mind is a house but I can't charge the tenant
Pain hanging on my neck like it's a pendant
I don't even wear a necklace I'm just trying hard to vent this
I just walk around like I can't keep a straight face
Type of mood I was in making Pelé
Figure out a stage name
So I can get a fake face
Stay away from drugs I be trying hard to stay safe
I know that I'm running but I can see its out of time
If you wanna be successful then be careful what you get surrounded by
I keep going out my mind
Trying to beat out the lies
But I'm crowded up my mine

I just wish I could live life
Without wanting to resign
Maybe someday I'll be fine
But I can't keep my state of mind
Some days I take looks at life
But I can't see it cause I'm blind
Things I see I don't have sight
But if there's one thing that I know
It's that I tried
One thing that I know
One thing that I know
One thing that I know
One thing that I know is that I tried
One thing that I know
One thing that I know
One thing that I know
One thing that I know is that I tried

Different people come up to me during different stages
In my life and in my mind I'm saying I'm in different places
I can't seem to shake this
Running different races
Surrounded by these thoughts that I can't get away from
I'm trying hard to take control not knowing what's behind the wheel
If I'm not here being me then tell me why is "me" here?
Can I let this be clear?
I should wait three years
Pacing and I'm patient so I'm waiting cause I've seen and hear
Everybody's sus
Don't know what I want
I just run and run
Till I've had enough
I keep feeling punched
It's been in the gut
Now I'm giving up
All with open hands
Yeah I missed some swings but I know how I'm keeping stance
Even if I can
I just say I can't
Maybe gain a couple fans
Then I'm gonna fall off hoping that I land
On two feet
Truly
I think that I'm moving
Get a couple dubs hoping I can quit losing my faith

I just wish I could live life
Without wanting to resign
Maybe someday I'll be fine
But I can't keep my state of mind
Some days I take looks at life
But I can't see it cause I'm blind
Things I see I don't have sight
But if there's one thing that I know
It's that I tried

I've been dreaming
Every single day
Every single night
It'll be alright
I've been thinking
All about this life
That I try to live it right
But hey
I've been dreaming
I been getting tempted
And sometimes I'm falling in it
But wait
I've been thinking
I just get forgiveness
Then I go back and revisit it

I just wish I could live life
Without wanting to resign
Maybe some day I'll be fine
But I can't keep my state of mind
Some days I take looks at life
But I can't see life cause I'm blind
Things I see I don't have sight
But if there's one thing that I know
It's that I tried
One thing that I know
One thing that I know
One thing that I know
One thing that I know is that I tried
One thing that I know
One thing that I know
One thing that I know
One thing that I know is that I tried