Lostboy

Lost boy
Swimming in emotion
Wonder where the hurt went
Wonder if it's worth it
To stay above water but you wanna go below it
They once told you that you were the chosen but
Now it seems to you that everything is floatin'
Drifting apart yet you never felt close with it
You used to pray but it seems that he don't know it
Crying or smiling they won't ever wanna show it
They won't ever wanna know it
All the pain for the fame
Somethin' you just gotta go with
All the lies already infiltrate your mind
Make you leave your life behind
For the simple piece of mind
That you have your own legacy
For the people that don't ever wanna see you win
The people that won't let you in
It's what you gotta find within
Or else you're gone in the wind
I've seen the doubt I've seen the sin
I've Been a boy I've been a man
Yet I still need the son of man
I need a guide
I need to find all what so far I've left behind
I know I'll fail If I don't try
Ima fall if I don't fly
So what's the use if I'ma die
Give it up to my God pray to him and he responded
Told me I won't ever drown
Swimmin' on the water while I see these people runnin' round
Circles in my head got me feelin' like I'm out of time
Shouting out look around then I realize that up until now I've always been a
Lost boy
Lost boy
I wanna do right though I'm wrong, boy
Tryna be a man but got a long way
Always been a boy couldn't find it kept on searchin' and I found joy
Try to talk to God but there's no way,
How's he love a man who's a sinner on a good day?
I'm always worried I can't repay
This love that I'm given is just too great
I look out at the sky think about why
Did he save me when I defy all his design
I wanna resign, this ain't meant for me
Part of me wants to die
The other wants to hide
Nah, that's just in the past
I'm thankful that It passed it and
I'm grateful that I lasted
Now I can live to share all the truth that's in the passage
So stop tryna swim cause you know that he's got this

I sit here and I read this
I wonder how come I haven't still beat it
Who makes all things new? Only Jesus
Not me, no, not me - strength from You, I need it
I start to cry when I look to the sky
Why do I try to rely on myself when I have no strength?
Can't finish the race
Sin leads to death and but from death, we escape
Haven't seen your face in a long time
Felt like I was running at you, but I write these lines
Just can't believe everything that is gone with time
I know I shouldn't but now I feel so inclined
I know I shouldn't get so twisted but what's your vision?
And these lines I be spittin'
I can't make these decisions with these witnesses
When I can't even get with now what the decision is
Rolling, it's tolling, how I'm un-devoting
My devotion, in all my motion, should I be choking?
Cause I don't really know if I should be not
My desires climbing higher, I want to go but stop
Why? What's holding me back?
Am I just trapped? What's happening?
There's gotta be a reason for being sick, so sick, of stopping before
I touch the fire
You say it just burns me more

Lost, I am found
In chains, I am bound
Lost, You found me
You found me, Lost