Letters of Regret

Mother I'm sorry
For all that I've done
Cause I can't take back the lies
From those days
That I wasn't myself
And I know you will always love me
For we are the same blood
But I fear this heart is not my own

And please don't worry
I'm near a good place
But my mind does wonder
And sometimes I stray too far
And maybe life
Was made for guessing
But I need some answers
So I can find those
Blessings you hold

And I'll look up
Past this world
And I'll hope for
You to get better
While I go on
Living for both of our hearts
And loving you all the same

Can you forgive me
For all of those years
When I was so lonely
And you were to close
For me to see
Exactly how much you cared
Well my damn perceptions
They fail me everywhere I go
So I'll go

And all that stress
Might take you too soon
So cherish these moments we have
Let the consume your soul
And know that
I have always loved you
More than myself
But what does that say for us
It's all for us

And I'll look up
Past this world
And I'll hope for
You to get better
While I go on
Living for both of our hearts
And loving you all the same
And I'll hold it onto every
Word that you say
From now until the end
And I'll love you forever
And always
Through this life into the next