Descent

I-I can't sleep but don't want to be awake
I can't go but I know i can't stay
And it's alone that I deal with the pain
Knowin' inside that I'll never be the same
You could watch me as I make my descent
Every living soul in this world I resent
Every single secret to my chest that I've kept
And to all those deceased in their piece may they rest

Patience we do not have
Fixation on money bags
Obsession with what you lack
It's all in your cataracts
I find it kinda funny how your vision ends up blinding you
And when you lose yourself it's troublesome just finding you
And all those sweet memories only reminding you
Of who you lost and all the things they coulda tried to do

Dreams in the dirt
Lines getting blurred
Tell me your worth
I want my thoughts preserved
Under the earth
In dark I'm immersed
These worlds I traverse
I fall in reverse

All these wars in my mind i Incite
And every single demon left behind I invite
The thing about a hole is you could always see the light
The thing about a death is you could never set it right

I-I can't sleep but don't want to be awake
I can't go but I know i can't stay
And it's alone that I deal with the pain
Knowin' inside that I'll never be the same
You could watch me as I make my descent
Every living soul in this world I resent
Every single secret to my chest that I've kept
And to all those deceased in their piece may they rest

See they just want you want what they have
Why you think we always post about it on the 'gram
Just so somebody could tell that you are the man
Getting a lot of likes and then do it all again
Tell me are you satisfied
Yeah
What would happen if you're outta time
Ay
I just figured what to do with mine
Yeah
Yeah instead of actin' paralyzed imma change a paradigm
Always been my worst enemy
Challenging myself mentally
Breaking all of these tendencies
That's how you set a legacy
I don't hope they remember me
I just trigger their sensory
I can make all these memories
With a transfer of energy
To be honest our whole life we've been lied to
And I'd be lying if I said I'm nothing like you
So many different things that I really thought that I knew
But it all changed ever since I couldn't find you

I-I can't sleep but don't want to be awake
I can't go but I know i can't stay
And it's alone that I deal with the pain
Knowin' inside that I'll never be the same
You could watch me as I make my descent
Every living soul in this world I resent
Every single secret to my chest that I've kept
And to all those deceased in their piece may they rest