Misery, Victory

Past me I murdered him
Fail then I learn again
Nothing is permanent
You haven't heard of this

Enter coordinates
I cannot get the location
Unfortunate
Try to be happy but this feels like torture it

Damn

Caught up in my head again
Wishing I was dead again
Sorry to my relatives
Fight or flight I fled again
Cover up the evidence
Too many failures
I don't think I'll ever win

I'm not religious but God can you help me I'm praying I don't want to fail
I don't feel productive, I don't feel fulfillment, I roll up, I spark and inhale

This doesn't bring me no peace
Happiness left me like peace
I'm trying to learn from mistakes in my past
But I can't and that makes me feel weak

They say that I'm better than others but that doesn't matter I'm tryna be better than me
Pull up to the party, I dip out like sorry I'm selfish and focused on me

I have been missing in action
I use my friends as distractions
I can't control what the rest of you do to me but I control my reaction

This is that I don't believe in me (Nope)
This is that people deceiving me (Yup)
This is that hustle exceedingly (Yup)
This is that nobody's beating me (Nope)

This is that I have no friends (For real)
This is me cutting loose ends (For real)
This is me sad with no money (For real)
Guess this is where I begin

Tell you my truth you don't hear the words
I have depression it keeps getting worse
And it only cease to exist when I work
I feel like nothing I own is deserved

Go out and craft my reality
I feel like everyone's mad at me
Trying to bring me down, gravity
Want to be comfy financially
I need more streams like substantially

Another year went by
Not a thing got done
I do not write all my music for fun
Half of this shits just advice to myself
I wanna know I can win by myself

Daily excuses they make me feel useless
I conquered new land and I don't want to lose it
I need new solutions, anxiety's ruthless
Wish I could inspire but that seems elusive, Nah

Get out of my workshop
Y'all can't see the vision

Bird box

I'm making music until I make history
Say what you want but I won't let it get to me
Fresh and I get in her mouth call me Listerine
Don't know if I'm gonna fall for this trickery
Someone call Scooby this shit is a mystery
Shout out to misery
Shout out to victory, Bitch

This is that I don't believe in me (Nope)
This is that people deceiving me (Yup)
This is that hustle exceedingly (Yup)
This is that nobody's beating me (Nope)

This is that I have no friends (For real)
This is me cutting loose ends (For real)
This is me sad with no money (For real)
Guess this is where I begin