Inner Solace

Surrounded by dark matter, in a tiny space
Bright walls cannot be seen, due to the window covers
Why? I'm imprisoned by my own mind, I find my eyes stapled in the ceiling corners
Any human functions remains unstable, with no pathway into promised land
My hands are tied, I don't possess the curridge to go outside
This constant distress follows me around
Afraid to communicate, my head's not in the right state
In any social setting, all I want is to dissapear
I cannot arrive any closer to the limit of selfdistruction
Slowly fading away, piece by piece

I am on foreign land, yet the reasoning overcomes the outcome
Could not have cared less, so I'll say this
The further you go, the steeper the downhills
No matter the enhancement of inner solace
Don't fail to think the decrease won't be twice the potency

Feeding on brief and false contentment
I fail to extract the faith required to climb this wall of fire
Moments of revelation have been sensed
But the hopelessness within me comes right back to pull me back down the ditch

Reaching, seeking for the indisputable serenity
Been searching for so long, with no peace to find
In pursuit, I struggle to find my own identity
Cutting corners, as I slowly descend
So deep into the madness of my mind
I lack of solutions
No ladder carries the height needed to climb out
Where do I belong? What is my reason to exist?
I will not know peace, without the extraction of something to live for