Awake

I can hear voices whispering right behind the door
Light from the outside spreads across the floor
When finally my mind goes clear
This is how it always begins
I become insecure, paralyzed, flooded in a sweat
My heart is beating nearly bursting off my chest
Only one thing can get me through this hour
Intoxication with destructive powers

I know, it can't be justified
I know, you just wanna get inside
And I really wish would have stayed
But I can't deal with you when I'm in this state
The huge paranoia settles in my head
Many times before, it left people dead
I've got a devotion until it breaks
Come back to me when I'm awake

When I'm awake
Come back to me when I'm awake
When I'm awake
Come back to me

Sicknesses, stress and antisocial behavior
No wonder I consider myself a failure
But Am I so different from all the others
Sometimes, I feel like I'm everyone who really matters
Don't get me wrong, I'm not a selfish person
I just think that self preservation has its own purpose
I've spent a whole a lot of time alone in one room
Contemplating past and assuming the truth

My body's overgrown with the disease and it hurts
I'm being thrown right into center of the universe
There's no way to move on, no way to turn back
My senses become dormant when drifting in the dark
And it always takes too long
I evade anything that gets too close
And then I get angry for my own mistakes
Come back to me when I'm awake