Ghosts

My mind is in constant pain
In constant fucking rain
I feel really fucking drain
I never wanted to be this way
In this bed I just fucking lay
It was selfish easy to betray
He never faded away
To the lord I pray
He felt addicted to this needle
Trying to feel fucking equal
Is this the pure evil
Long enough story for a sequel
It's fucking too lethal
But now we're here fucking choking
I wish you were fucking joking
God damn I was fucking hoping
Leaving your mother fucking moping
What the fuck were you smoking
Bad enough a girl left my heart broken
Then next drugs took my cousin
Not just his life like a couple dozen
It took Jane and her fucking husband
It's a big issue where's the discussion?
They just need some fucking loving

Cuts on my arm will remind me of pain
Needing you back I'm going insane
There isn't all silence except for the train
The one that you hopped on when you shot ya brain
Hospital noises echo in my mind
Wish I can go back, way back in time
To reverse the effects of you finally dying
To pick ya head up and remind of you trying
You was lost
In another world I couldn't see
Hang me by my neck so I cannot breathe
Had to watch you fall like you were a leaf
Screaming in your casket why the fuck did you leave?
I'm steady counting blessings but I don't even know
Life isn't the same ever since you chose to go
What's this about?
I'ma blow my brains just to show you what my minds about

Say No the drugs it won't take the pain away
They stay the predator and we remain the the prey
All the lives and the energy they take away
A leading cause of death is something that I hate to say
Increasing rate of change sucks up in this day and age
Dear God dear God as I pray today
Give'em love that the world seems to take away
To fill void that these drugs can't replace and save
All the people and I hope that this gives them hope
So they want be found dead due overdose
Put down that needle put down the pills put down the coke
Take all the ones you love and just hold'em close
Help them overcome so they won't become a ghost
This a real issue it ain't a joke

Nah it ain't a joke
I need to fixate
My eyes they're blurry I can't think straight
Orange bottle on dresser
I wish they left her
I wish they didn't over take
What was left of her
I wear this cross on the daily
Sending up my prayers hopin that she can hear me
She let the drugs win some battles
And in the end they won the war
So how do I move forward
Knowing your heart was torn
Cuz I could see it in your eyes
You didn't wanna show all the pain you had inside
You knew you were stronger
But the fucking pills lasted longer
So how do I move pass that
I need you like a student needs back pack
And everyday I get these flash backs
Of all the stuff we used to laugh at
But you took the drugs a final time
Ya you took the drugs a final time