Mind Games

I smoke my weed and pray to God
Shit I feel like sometimes that's the only one who understands me anyway

I'm in my zone in this world I feel all alone
King on the throne they won't love me til I'm dead and gone
All the stress and the emptiness I feel inside
Voices in my head conflicting me I got a dangerous mind

I Been through hell my shoes to big you couldn't walk in mine
I write through pain can feel the scars in each and every rhyme
Even through the darkest nights like a star I shine
Remaining calm trying hard not to loose my mind

Heavy heart and heavy thoughts all this weight on my shoulders
Intoxicated chain smoking I hate to be sober
To many ups and downs emotional roller coaster
To many suckas in the game can't wait til it's over

Paranoid I'm getting high to to balance out the lows
I was fucked up and down bad but somehow I rose
Shit Sometimes you take a loss that's just the way it goes
Heaven or hell where which will I go only god knows

My father tried to give me game but I ain't get the message
I'm burned our bridge I'm sorry hope you hear my confession
On the road to the richest I had the wrong directions
Lines got crossed up and now it's a Disconnection

I love my son I can't never him see me stressing
Now he's 5 so everyday he asks a million questions
You make mistakes I got ya back make sure you learn ya lessons
I'm grateful for you everyday cause Your my biggest blessing

I'm in my zone in this world I feel all alone
King on the throne they won't love me til I'm dead and gone
All the stress and the emptiness I feel inside
Voices in my head conflicting me I got a dangerous mind

I Been through hell my shoes to big you couldn't walk in mine
I write through pain can feel the scars in each and every rhyme
Even through the darkest nights like a star I shine
Remaining calm trying hard not to loose my mind

Dealing with depression since a child my mental was foul
Hard headed angry and upset but always kept a smile
Ten toes on the ground my head always in the clouds
Why do I feel alone even when standing in a crowd

See niggaz be dead beats as a man no I can't respect em
Why do mommas give birth to babies and then neglect em
Little boys turn into men way before their time
Y'all was living lavish we adapted to a life of crime

Tearing up the Northwest side of Philly wit my niggaz
Back when we boxed it out way before we squeezed the triggers
Now it's kill or be killed another body blood spilled
I don't care what your life is like mines is real

Dogtown that's where I'm from no bitching We never run
In my hood you you live by the sword but you die by the gun
The city of brotherly love then how come I don't feel none
I wrote this for anyone that feel alone I'm not the only one

I'm in my zone in this world I feel all alone
King on the throne they won't love me til I'm dead and gone
All the stress and the emptiness I feel inside
Voices in my head conflicting me I got a dangerous mind

I Been through hell my shoes to big you couldn't walk in mine
I write through pain can feel the scars in each and every rhyme
Even through the darkest nights like a star I shine
Remaining calm trying hard not to loose my mind