Deep

Thought I had a kind of claim back when we were made
When we thought we had made everything a paradise for us
'Cause I don't ever trust
Thinking back to better days, or were they better, babe?
Did I delude myself in making up these memories of us?
I don't remember much

And honestly I can't explain why I'm here today
I thought if I could save a moment for you, I would change
The reasons for the way I had decided things
If I could be the change, pretending for a day

That we don't live in the darkness; like you don't hate that I say this
Like I don't care if it hurts us, could we do it again?

You don't have to love me again if you won't
Trust in my fallacies, the make-believes
After all this time, I want you to know
You're still a part of me, somewhere deep

Looking back, recognised that I did you so wrong
Did I mean it when I said I wanna be alone?
Did I mean it when I left you out on your own?
Of course I did, I wouldn't trade another outcome
If everything about us was leading up to that moment
I could pick a couple memories out of the stream unbroken
And I'd chalk it up to being either my fault or yours
But we were never married, so why should I talk divorce?
All I really want is what was mine and what was yours
Cynical as always, but I'm trying to be the force
The reason for the change, just take a look at me
Could you forgive me these? Pretend for now, at least

I blaze to all the memories of you
I still hold on to what made up my youth
It was you, it was you, it was you

You don't have to love me again if you don't
But you're still a part of me, somewhere deep