(A Couple Years Back)

I am compassionate
I have grown up a bit
I have not aged gracefully, I'm first to admit

I was an angry kid
Sure, there were things you did
But I have more context the more years that I live

I understand stuff
Like being sick is rough
And I know much better now how your life was tough

I have a moment of weak- or of kindness
I give you my e-mail address through my big sis

Forgive me, please, I've got
Two jobs, and it's a lot
And when I think of you, well, my stomach still knots

Let's meet on neutral ground
At a cafe downtown
Please make no mistakes, this doesn't mean my guard's down

Focus on feeling a pinch or a hair pull
I'm softer, yessir, but I am still careful

I get there way before
You just to watch the door
I am in control here, this is what I asked for

We are both nervous, you talk more than I do
It's, frankly, a service, don't know what I'd tell you

It's nice to see you happy
Maybe it's nice to see you
Maybe if I'm diligent
Maybe I can feel safe and
Maybe this can continue