Conversations

So it started like a fairytale
Happiness and butterflies
Back when we was younger
We never worried cause we always fine
Been talkin for some years now
But never met in person
Didnt know if it was right
And didnt know if it was worth it
Perfect, im shooting all my shots up in the dark
Man i thought you were the match, but ur match aint match my spark
That shit just went out
Left without question, thought we was fine
Headin the perfect direction. a blessin
Assumption is the devil, just believe that
Off of personal experiences dont need no feedback
Said it wasnt me but instead it was you
Dont know if u felt the same as i was feeling for u

And there u go, you wanna mark me as the bad guy
Thought u was an angel, ha good try
I gave u all the signs but u ignored and never cared
And i felt so alone, tbh that wasnt fair, we were a pair
Together in whatever we faced
Now this ur medicine, tell me how does it taste
U dont like it do you, i really thought that i knew u
U just felt the way cause i told u the feelings weren't mutual
Wish things could just go back to how they used to be
Where we were independent, and u werent using me
Where u were standing on ur own, with ur own two feet
Cause tbh i dont like the way u moving be
But now that i just moved on and i found somebody new
U think that u can just come back and try to interrupt that too
And u really trynna show out whenever ur near ur crew
You acting all these different ways that really arent even you

So im suppose to know, just what u thinking
And it was nothing when we hung out almost every weekend
And u was telling ur friends that u was happy and living well
Man i guess its my fault cause i couldnt tell
And u told me all ur secrets & how u hated life
But when u bumped into me everything was right
Everything was perfect
That waiting it out was so worth it
From the guys who chased ur heart, i actually deserved it
And we had plans for the future man
Vacation living, white sands as we getting tanned
Bookin' flights as we land, go and hit Japan
Cause without u, its really hard for me to be a man, so understand
I loved u more than i loved myself
My dream girl broke my heart, do u know how that felt?
Was in my feelings, dash 120 as i hit the belt
Was on my own, aint have nowhere to go and ask for help

I didnt mean to break your heart like that, honestly thats true
And everything i said, i meant it
I would never lie to you
U were the best i ever had
Man, the best that ever did it
But the love aint there i dont know i just dont feel it
I never really talk on how i feel, its bottled up and i stand strong so i never spill
No man will ever catch me weak
And yeah thats for real
So i never show emotion, i just keep it chill
Cause one ounce of vulnerability ya take advantage
So yeah i view ya all the same, my past made me damaged
I guard my feelings, not by choice but just cause its a habit
So when it comes to my heart, no one can really have it
And like i said, its on me & its not on you
I shouldve never moved on from what im goin through
More worried on my feelings then being worried on you
I really wished we met at different times and worked it through. i do