Starve

You live in the shadows
You feed off my secrets
The ball's in my court now
Even if I don't believe it

The nipping at my heels
The whisper in my ears
Saying that I'm not enough
Saying I should just give up

You held me close, said I was safe
But you won't let me walk away

I'd starve so I wouldn't have to feel
Run away from the voices in my head
But I guess that's how I ended up here
There's so much that I never said

Lost myself in a sea of faces
I tried really hard but I just can't fake it
Stuck behind locked doors
Trapped inside myself
No choice to ignore
I've gotta let it out

I'd starve so I wouldn't have to feel
Run away from the voices in my head
But I guess that's how I ended up here
There's so much that I never said

Waging wars inside my head
Climbing outta bed at four AM
Feel like a stranger in my own skin
Not sure that it's better than being starving

How many times will I reinvent myself
How many lies will I allow myself to tell
'Cause I've been down this road
Know exactly how it ends
I can't let this go
But I'm so sick of playing pretend

I'd starve so I wouldn't have to feel
Run away from the voices in my head
But I guess that's how I ended up here
There's so much that I never said

When did I stop loving who I was
When did that little girl grow up