Let Me Carry The Weight You Can't

Exhausted from screaming
My throat's ripped to shreds
I used to laugh at the thought of a sickness in my head
And everyday your voice still haunts me
And everyday I am left to believe
That it all was my fault that you felt alone
Your hints of depression a soft cry for help
I was too busy to notice or care of how you felt

I still cry at your grave and visit your mother
Tell her it's okay, bring a gift for your brother
Their empty eyes look through me
And they're speaking like you haven't passed at all

I wanted to tell you again that I miss you
I water these flowers with tears from my cheeks
I pick any dandelions and wipe away the dirt that hides your name

Silent unspoken a bystander to this
Complacent complicit I'm lost without my friend
Please forgive me brother
Please forgive me

Out of anger I curse your name
And pray to a god that I don't believe in
How does the beauty of life go unnoticed
A wonderful soul turned hopeless
You were so afraid of failure
But now the chance of succeeding is gone
If I could just shake you and tell you how much you are loved
You would see how your thinking is so fucking flawed

Exhausted from screaming
My throat's ripped to shreds
I used to laugh at the thought of a sickness in my head

I wanna believe you regret it
Wherever you are do you regret it
Let me carry the weight you can't

I still cry at your grave and visit your mother
Tell her it's okay, bring a gift for your brother
Their empty eyes look through me
And they're speaking like you haven't passed at all

I wanted to tell you again that I miss you
I water these flowers with tears from my cheeks
I pick any dandelions and wipe away the dirt that hides your name