Spill - Acoustic

I'm not the type of person to not go all in
I'm all or nothing
No I can't just get my feet wet
Especially with love
My feelings are all dead set
I can't take risks anymore
I need a safe bet

'Cause someone fucked me up before
And they know what they did
And ever since I just always had my feelings
Hidden from the world
As to look less vulnerable
But since I've opened up
I can't escape what's in my skull

I'll be honest
I'm a wreck ever since you left
And that's not your fault
It's just the way that I am
You had a presence that would calm my insecurities
And now you're gone
And I can't fight what's haunting me

I don't want you to feel like you left this mess
For me to clean up
It was here long before we met
But I feel like I miss you more than you miss me
And not being good enough is fucking killing me

I feel so ignored
Like a spill on the floor
That you never bothered to clean up
So you cover me up
With a blanket or rug
To hide what are now rotten floorboards
But I'll always be there
In the back of your mind
And one day I'll be exposed
And then you'll have to stare at me
Warped and rotting

And finally reap what you sowed

But I'm not just a spill
And I won't let you kill
What was left of my pride
And I'll keep a strong will
Because I'm not complacent
I won't lie here patient
Because I've been too silent
But I'm ready to face this

You will never love me
The way I wanted to love you
And it hurts to say it
But the sooner I face it
The sooner I'll pull through

And I hope
You'll remember me
As more than just a vacation
And if I find someone new
They'll never be just your replacement