Forever & Always

I keep confessing to the sky
But I still can't translate the reply when

Life is so long, yet temporary
And when our bodies fade, what will remain are songs we sang

You always said we'd be fine, but your actions make your words decay
I keep reaching but you always push me further away
I'm such a mess but can't feel sorry for myself
Hardened hearts will soon forget how they're meant to live as they start to fall
I'm not the monster they make me out to be, just the one that they see

Please tell me

If I keep missing the mark, will you throw me away; say you'll be back someday?
Even though we lost each other, these cold years can't last forever
(Trust burned; love lost)
What have you left me for; I just can't take anymore, it's crushing my soul
I see clearly now, you're fine and I'm stuck here waiting
(Faith shaken; hope gone)

I've heard it all before
The pain is gone but that doesn't change a damn thing
When will this fight finally come to an end?
God only knows

I'm not a victim of shame

If I keep missing the mark, will you throw me away; say you'll be back someday?
Even though we lost each other, these cold years can't last forever
(Trust burned; love lost)
What have you left me for; I just can't take anymore, it's crushing my soul
I see clearly now, you're fine and I'm stuck here waiting
(Faith shaken; hope gone)

I can't hold on to your voice
So I'll paint every word in every letter, but the lines seem to bleed by choice

I've held the darkness inside for too long
Open me up to see the fractured one
Hiding scars with fake smiles and handshakes
Love is temporary when it's tethered to its own cage
I'm not sorry for staying strong

My faith can't reach that high
It's not to say I never tried
My faith can't reach that high
It's not to say I never tried

My faith can't reach that high
It's not to say I never