Cold

Pardon my disrespect, you dont know me
Sure I dropped "amor", but never told thee
Contents to my name or the reasons you should play, me speaking through your speakers I take this second to say
My name is Elijah Johnson
First name is Ajamn
Elijah is my middle I'm using that name because
Every since I was little I always felt I was meant to, look at Elijah's life and finish what he had done
Never been blood or cuz but prolly been on the cuffs
A product of my environment, dope is what I become
I was hoping I'll write it once
You'll hear it and then become
Fans my name spreads and then I had woken up
I been to hell way more than once
Looked demons right in they face
I know my God real because Lucifer isn't fake
And yea I'm preaching on the side, yes I'm cussing to this day
If you look for clean music then you shouldn't come this way
Cuz I was raised in the real
They felt like cussing and did it
They said I was fucking up instead of sugar coating sentence
I remember asking why they would cuss at me when they spit it
They said they'll keep it blunt before a judge could sentence me with it
Im cold...
But You'll probably never know
In the midst of all of my failures it was tricking off my growth
Man im 20 and im supposed
To pay bills like I am grown
But I ain't even got the money to pay off whats on my phone
But Im cold

Right?
Sometimes I can really doubt myself

Look, I'm just a nigga that found out that he was gifted
Sometimes I'd question why, whats my purpose and will I live it
I never pray for the end, I'm aways praying for wisdom
So whenever a problem, I'd see it and go and end it
I never pray for the end, I'm always praying for strength
My father never said it but taught me can't be no bitch
Im never praying for end, always praying for courage
Cuz I be getting scared and I think my enemies heard it
Yea imma man, I'll admit it I do be hurtin'
Smoking your pain away overlooks the fact that you earned it
The weak dont go through shit
No trials or tribulations
They trippin over some pebbles and screaming they body aching
I understand you in pain, probably way more than you
But some people have seen somethings, makes me grateful what I been through
I'm looking back its kinda cool
That I made it from there to here
And here I'm still broke but could've died way back there
So I don't smoke to the pain
I sit back and embrace it
Ironic I'll prolly trip if they ever give it with laces
I know, I'm probably one of the coldest that you heard
Im looking at these stories how they labels own they verse
Own they song and own they work
Own me? My GG will prolly hurt
I could still feel her spirit lurk as she looks at me from the stars
Im probably going to meet her when you gas me for who I are
Let me tell you who I are
My Name is Elijah Johnson
I am looking for some change
Im another black man I see my people live in pain
Yea I rap and what I say
Im hoping can touch your brain
Make its way to your heart to help you with all that strain
I am Elijah Johnson
Another nigga with dreams
Im named my brand "amor" because loving is what we need
Loving you, loving me, love prosperity and peace
Love love, love your haters and go love your G O D
I am