Self Healing

Back to when I didn't glow or didn't flow
Back to when I didn't grow or didn't tow

I grow from very simple things cause after all i'm just a human being
We take what we have and give what we want
We surpass the idea of simple love
We don't know what we're missing until it's all gone
And that's why i'm here cause I did it all wrong

I live for self dedication, in a nation where we live to dream
And those who work are deemed worthy
I sat at a train station where I almost blew out my brain
From a preconceived idea of depression and suppression
I was a freshmen when I found my first love, who then I did wrong
Depression corrupted me and I started making songs
It was a prolonged feeling until I found the love of my life who then again left me
I balled up and cried, I swelled up and fried until it all left

I remember times where we used to laugh
I remember times where we used to dance and smile about your cats
And we used to have a blast, falling asleep while you brushed through my hair
And we felt the subtle air that we Knew was love
We were a perfect match you were like a month you fit me so well
Now i'm throwing coins down a wishing well
Hoping that you come and join me on a great walk through hell
We can go to the beach and find little shells, as we hold hands and laugh cause everything is swell
I called you my baby, the first date was crazy
The feelings I had when I thought you would say maybe
The feeling I had calling you my lady
I love you, your brothers, your sisters, your mothers, and your father
They didn't bother, they welcomed and now I feel dumb, ripped up into pieces of crumbs
People calling me a bum, am I really scum?