Alive (1-800-273-8255)

Ya ya, ya ya
Ya ya, ya ya – eh

I don't wanna be alive
I'm done with the sorrow I'm hollow inside
Low-key I'm looking for a god right now
Wouldn't no-one want this as their child
Slits on my wrist and I'm broken
These pills got me spinning off focus
I was the life of the party
I was the life of the party I came here alone and I cried
My mental it wants to die my body's sick of this fight
My body it wants to die my mentals sick of this fight

I'm so ashamed of what I've been thru
Don't you get close and make me tell you
I've had to live a whole life this whole phisod is my pride
I've had to live this whole lie
Yeah

You knew the real me
And in the end
You used the shit against me, tell me yeah
You knew the real me
And in the end
You used the shit against me

I don't wanna die
Cause you left me
Bitch you knew I was mental and you test me
Round of applause-where's my support when you mad?
Told me to slit my other wrist when I'm sad
And I'm all fucked up cuz I believed in you
Fell victim to the words and the shit you do

I can see the bullshit like a visual
I hurt, time hurt like a ritual
Girl you shit on my love I pity the fool

You can love that girl you embarrassing
My best fucking friend and you turned into my enemy
Not even friends, you can go and be my enemy
I had a bitch who lied to me she says that she knew loyalty
You lied to me, said that you knew loyalty

You knew the real me
And in the end you used the shit against me tell me yeah
You knew the real me
And in the end you used the shit against me tell me yeah

Remember that love I gave you?
Well put that shit back in the bag
I was seeing everything but fucking red flags
You was my whole everything but damn forget that

Deaf ear and two sided lies
Ma said that im gone be fine
You mighta killed me, love mighta killed me but I still pray for your soul every night

You knew the real me
And in the end
You used the shit against me, tell me yeah.
You knew the real me
And in the end
You used the shit against me

Got me outta my mind yeah, sick of wasting my time yeah
Got me outta my mind yeah, sick of wasting my time yeah
Got me outta my mind yeah, sick of wasting my time yeah