Wasted Anxiety

Yknow I think of all the times
That I thought that you have lied
And I think of all the shit that I've tried

It's a shame all by myself
Man i swear I think it still will harm my health
Seeing all of these people tryna run away from themselves

So, I
Put my heart in something that I know I shouldn't have
And the pain that I was feeling wasn't really all that bad
Until my brain felt all of that
I should suffer, go insane
I've been thinking and drinking off all of the reasons that destiny just never came

The same reason I'm running from the pain
Is the
The same reason I keep playing these mind games

I don't understand
I mean, I swear
Can't this shit wait till the morning

The days my heartbeat fluttered around
Just when I got to hear the sound
Of the voice of an angel
Yea, the voice of an angel

But those days are gone
Yea, I mean that there's nothing to do
Accept the fate of a broken one
Don't act like a fool
Just try to get over it
They're gone for good

And then the feelings back
Always the worst timing when it attacks
Makes you think about all the things that you lack
Your money, your life, your feelings, a career
Anxiety stopping your mind from being clear

Yknow I think of all the times
That I thought that you have lied
And I think of all the shit that I've tried

It's a shame all by myself
Man i swear I think it still will harm my health
Seeing all of these people tryna run away from themselves

But let me explain something
You see

I know that you're thinking I'm mean
I know that you think it's obscene
To see
To see all these people like me
Those people like me on our knees
I remember when you would
You'd taunt and you'd tease
Hoping to get
A rise outta me
Well I got some news for ya, you see
You are no longer the person I need

I've been running around don't you see
Paying bills every week
Just to throw it all away
Like you think it was nothing
When I was down
I'll tell you, I was still feeling like jumping off of a cliff
Talking about "You just let me slip"
"I deserve more shit"
The only thing that you deserve
Is somebody calling you a dick

Man, lemme tell you something
You started of with nothing
I gave you a chance
To prove to me
That your company
Wasn't the only thing that I was wanting
I gave you the love
I gave you the trust
I never was tripping when you lit up your blunt
But at the end of the day
You threw it all away
And decided it was best to go back on your manhunt.

Oh ooo oh
I just wanted you to see that person that I could be
Oh ooo oh
I just wanted see all of my wasted anxiety (Eee)
All of that tension inside of me (Eee)
I guess that's the side that you'll never see