Meditate

Styrofoam cup full of Jack Daniels
A mind full of doubt that's what life hands you
You either live for the clout or do what feels right
And I'm known to put on shows under field lights
I feel like my life is heading up now
Don't struggle with trust now
My lust now, is placed in perspective
I got way too much to lose with this woman I've connected with
I done fought my demons causing demons and I've slept with them
At times I tell myself that I could never win
Then I'm looking back at blessings like you rambling
Michael Vick the pressure how I'm dodging when I'm scrambling
I been living risk free in me is who gambling on
I list my thoughts and my struggles in songs
These risky thoughts when I'm seeing these thongs
I just pass em' along
On this journey I've been coming along
I lived, learned, listened then I evolved
A lot of people throwing shade it's kind of pissing me off
And I ain't stalling no more
Just know it's urgent if I walk through the door
My time is limited can't waste it no more
So all this liquor I pour
Usually seaming through the seams of my pores
Like a band-aid the shit I've endured
Or excuses for the shit I enjoy
So I'm good luv baby enjoy
And all this good love I'm getting from bae
Way beyond priceless I'm thanking god she ain't making me pay but hey

You ask me what is pain I say it's everything
I wouldn't change a thing I've done in any way
I'm thinking bout' my circumstances everyday
Closed eyes prayer and I meditate
You ask me what is pain I say it's everything
I wouldn't change a thing I've done in any way
I'm thinking bout' my circumstances everyday
Closed eyes prayer and I meditate yea

What you see is what you get so I'm focused on transparency
My inner me ain't my enemy it's my ally
All praise to the most high
Zoning out when I close eyes
Highs and lows and similar rise and falls I've familiarized
My journey it been different wouldn't make it different
I wouldn't change a thing I know it makes a difference
I'm closing in on distance they can see the vision
Some people they went missing but I know I miss em'
Tryna meet Big Sean in Detroit like a Piston
And tell him that mental health what he preaching is how I'm living
And everything is Limitless, limits don't see no ceilings
My feelings been steady healing
My logic is condescending
I stopped questioning my God and the messages that he's sending
Now it's front and center, they sense it that I'm ascending
My descendants be disgusted when witnessing that I'm sinning
Yet they know I'm human so patience is what they giving
I've funneled through the years of existing I'm finally living
Lost a lot of peers it appears what we want was different
Memories engraved but they slipping forget the image
My home team the same whether game, a practice or scrimmage
I meditate and prayed through my darkest times now I'm winning
At times I feel afraid it was evident through me tripping
The people that I value when speaking I always listen
And everything I worked for is present I feel it shifting

You ask me what is pain I say it's everything
I wouldn't change a thing I've done in any way
I'm thinking bout' my circumstances everyday
Closed eyes prayer and I meditate yea