Christmas Eve

I won't be home for Christmas
But that's okay
'Cause we won't always be together, but know we have each other
And I see it that way
So it gives me the strength for me to stay

I won't lie, man I miss home
Home sick, break bread over wishbones
Cold tea, TV, Netflix on
Christmas wishlist, but the list gone
So I've got to keep busy, I can't keep drinking to pass the time
And the reason I'm not home is a bit of poor planning and a bit of self-sacrifice

So I won't be home for Christmas
But that's okay
'Cause we won't always be together, but know we have each other
And I see it that way
And it gives me the strength for me to stay

Make another wish on a Christmas light
Wish I could see through a Christians eyes
My faith is so rocky
But it don't stop me
From praying for my sis' and my mama
Everybody got family drama
Baby nephew on the come up
Man I miss the little man
Still remember his tiny fist when he grabbed my hand
Almost to say
"Everything's going to be alright"
Little sister had a seizure and she had to hit me up because she felt she almost lost her life
She was like
"I could feel myself go
So I needed to show
I need you to know
How much I love you"
I said, "Baby sister I know
I've never doubted your soul
You make me feel less alone
You know I love you"
I hate to rap my sisters sickness over here
But don't wait for Christmas just to tell your family that you care

'Cause I won't be home for Christmas
But that's okay
'Cause we won't always be together, but know we have each other
And I see it that way
'Cause it gives me the strength for me to stay

I'm finally at an age where I appreciate my mama
And the work she did to put me in this place
'Cause as a kid you're blinded by the things you do not have
An absent father I was really full of hate
The days we didn't have no water or we had to use the candles
Man I swear it's like this woman wasn't phased
But now I think about it she had to keep it together
For my sister and for me, the confidence
She said
"Everything's going to be alright
We've got God on our side
I've seen a lot worse through my life
So don't whine about no water just thank God you're alive"

Now I know I won't be home for Christmas
But that's okay
'Cause we won't always be together, but know we have each other
And I see it that way
'Cause it gives me the strength for me to stay

Merry Christmas
Merry Christmas
Merry Christmas
Merry Christmas
Life's too short to take things for granted
I live for today I can't take my chances
The first time I said "I love you" to my mother it was awkward
Intentions never landed
But I kept at, yes I kept on
And a couple weeks in, it didn't take to long
Now we say, "I love you" and "I love you too"
Every time when we cut the phone

I won't be home for Christmas
But that's okay
'Cause we won't always be together, but know we have each other
And I see it that way
'Cause it gives me the strength for me to stay
I won't be home for Christmas
But that's okay
'Cause we won't always be together, but know we have each other
And I see it that way
'Cause it gives me the strength for me to stay

Merry Christmas
Merry Christmas