Everyone Knows

It's 3 am and I feel like this is all a game
And I don't know the rules,
And I feel so ashamed
And it's like I can't get it,
I'll just let it beat me

I can't stop crying and swinging at nothing at all
And it hurts when I sleep
And I'm numb when I fall
through these days
And I know that it shouldn't be this hard

'Cause I wake when it's dark and
I dream through the day
And my lover, he says, it will all be okay
When I look in the mirror,
I see a new face
Of a woman who's fate has been somehow misplaced

And I wonder...
I wonder if it shows?
And I wonder...
If everyone knows?

I'm afraid to reach out 'cause I know what you'll say
You will give me kind words but your smile will betray
How you're scared just like me
And wish you could have helped some

I'll wrap myself up in your words but they won't keep me warm
Like a child in a comforter, I will transform
Into something more beautiful than red monarch

'Cause I wake when it's dark and
I dream through the day
And my lover, he says, it will all be okay
When I look in the mirror,
I see a new face
Of a woman who's fate has been somehow misplaced

And I wonder...
I wonder if it shows?
And I wonder...
If everyone knows?

. . .

If I shut the door and decided to never come out
I wonder if they'd ask what these words were about
And if maybe, they'd call me just a little crazy

'Cause I wake when it's dark and I dream through the day
And my lover, he says, it will all be okay
I look to the future,
See only the past
And I know that these moments were not made to last

And I wonder...
I wonder if it shows?
And I wonder...
If everyone knows?