Numb

Six shots of whiskey now I'm feeling numb
I keep on running, not sure what it's from
No matter what I do, it's never enough
I wonder what happens if I give this up

This liquor I'm chasing got me feeling numb
This pressure is building and I might succumb
I've gone for the next step, but somehow I'm stuck
I wonder what happens if I give this up

Another day, another headache
Tryna figure out what to do with all the dead weight
Bottled up some problems I had and all of that led straight
To a couple of curveballs that I threw that I never set straight

I've been chasing dreams for a motherfucking decade
Damn, and it still feels like a nightmare
I don't try to bitch, homie I know life don't fight fair
I put it in a song, hoping that somebody might care

'Cause I put it all on the line, all of the time
And it still isn't falling in line, I call to the sky
Wonder why I'm in stalling, 'cause I saw all the signs
That destiny was calling, and I've been starting my mind

That this is all that I got, this is my motherfucking purpose
Why do I feel lost, so stuck under the surface
It's coming at a cost, so I go to sleep nervous
I'm waking up angry, is this shit worth it

It's feeling like a burden (uh)
I used to look in the mirror and see benefits
Now I'm looking in the mirror at my nemesis
That's enough to get me pumping with adrenaline

Doc's saying I need sedatives and medicine
Anxiety and depression they've been setting in
That shit sends shivers down my skeleton
They've been knocking on my door and I might let them in

This liquor I'm chasing got me feeling numb
This pressure is building and I might succumb
I've gone for the next step, but somehow I'm stuck
I wonder what happens if I give this up

Six shots of whiskey now I'm feeling numb
I keep on running, not sure what it's from
No matter what I do, it's never enough
I wonder what happens if I give this up

Was never a bitch, that's just not in my breath
So it's bad I've eroded I'm down on my knees
Something's stealing my breath now it's harder to breathe
So I bite it all down and I finally bleed

All the cuts and the wounds I collect
Been through all kinds of depths for the world to recover
I'm a martyr of sorts and that's selling it short
Now I wonder if dying in wonder

It's better than all of the pain
'Cause there's not been a day that I haven't seen rain
Psychology states that if I stay in this state
Then I'll probably fuck up my brain

Every day waking up drained
And I was asleep, but I still feel the same
I'm feeling insane, I search for the words that I could never explain
Thought this life really isn't as good as they claim

I'm certain they're plotting in my head to eat me alive
It swallows me whole, but it's unsatisfied
Consumed by the thoughts that I'm having to hide
They feed on the pressure I breathe in the lies

And search for the words I'm unlikely to speak
My mouths stapled shut so I scream in my sleep
Never would've thought this was how it would be
A nightmare to live in a dream (oh)

This liquor I'm chasing got me feeling numb
This pressure is building and I might succumb
I've gone for the next step, but somehow I'm stuck
I wonder what happens if I give this up

Six shots of whiskey now I'm feeling numb
I keep on running, not sure what it's from
No matter what I do, it's never enough
I wonder what happens if I give this up