The Party

The party was over before it even began
I'm sober with your drink in my hand, I wish you'd understand
That I love how much you love your friends
But I don't have to love them, though I'll pretend for your sake
So here I am, having the same conversations again
I need a break from trynna break the ice without falling in
I'll swim across oceans for your love, but these people don't give a fuck
If you drown, and somehow that's who you bring
With you out on deep water, I feel for ya, but sometimes
I feel sorta unreal to ya, look, I'm trying
To be who ya define yourself by
And well, I know it's kinda low, but I kinda hope your drink spills on ya
Right before the gin and juice turn to interviews where you bend the truth
And I get accused for shit I didn't do
You letting loose while I'm holding on tight
You let me lose cause I don't know why we fight

You're too dependent
On what your friends think
Like you forget what you think when you are alone
Impress them
Earn their acceptance
If you don't wanna be somebody on your own

You remind me of a love-song
Always playin in the background
The one you can't run from
That you can't turn down
Said you remind me of a love-song
That leaves you wit your heart torn
The kind that you cry to
You won't see me cry tho

I won't shed no tears over you
I'm not gonna
I won't shed no tears over you
I'm not gonna
I won't shed no tears over you
I'm not gonna
I won't shed no tears over you
I'm not gonna

You want me to act like I care
I want you to stop acting
You want me to be serious
I want you to start laughing
You want me to fit your ideas
I want you to stop planning
You want me to be here for this
I want you to notice my absence
You want me to take a picture for ya
I want you to stop snapping
You want me to not be ridiculous
I want you to start dancing
You want me to see how they adore ya
I want you to look past em
You want me despite our differences
And I wanted you, but that was back then