Nowhere to Go

Who do I talk to, when I have nowhere to go?
Do I run or do I hide?
It's best if I don't fight
When I try running
It always catches up
Then I lose all my breath
Light in the head

I feel it coming
But I'm not scared anymore
I've grown so used to it
That it don't matter no more
Refusing hand outs
I'll do this on my own
I've come this far
And I'll go further than this

I know it's hard sometimes but I'll be fine
I learnt a lot these past years
But I don't know if it matters
You know it's hard when you can't get your head up off
Pillows of concrete but it still feels comfortable

Waiting for rain to wash it away
Waiting for the sea to take me away
Waiting for the sun to burn it all out
Waiting for smoke to fill up my lungs
I can't breathe, I'm drowning out here, lonely
I'll be fine, I'll be fine

I'll be fine
I learnt a lot these past years
But I don't know if it matters
You know it's hard when you can't get your head up off
Pillows of concrete but it still feels comfortable

I try to fight it
But I subside it and it gets ahold of me
My mind is numb to it but I still feel it here
I know it won't ever leave so I submerge in it