Old Me

Yeah I had a lot to prove when they didn't know me
I was different with the tension I go OD
Used to haunt me in my dreams yeah I got no sleep
But now don't even react cuz that's the old me
Niggas never change niggas never change
Lost so many friends cuz I ain't the same
They tell me that I've changed tell me that I've changed
But how y'all stay the same man it ain't the same

I used to be young
And what I was used to I used to let
Justify what I had done Who id become
Emotional motions these notions
Atoning for who done me wrong
Unknowing that those who effect me
Were those who control me theyd troll me
Id slowly become less controlling
And then without warning id get so upset
Reactions unfolding I'd later regret
Like I had something to prove
You bet I a prove You better approve
You bet I won't rest till u do
But it seems what I seen is that
Spec of respect never moves in whatever I do
Whatever im cool no not really I really lose sleep
Cuz what's special to me especially me is not special to you
Don't expect keeping cool being cool ain't my specialty move
See these niggas say words and these words hit a nerve
Like a 92 Cutlass that swerves and them dubs hit a curb
Get a rash and all hate to get rash and all I get irrational
Eyes get a rash and all face arms legs hands and all
Places please keep your whole face out my hands of all places
you facing a danger when I place my anger towards faces please face away get away safely
I'm learning that I won't find salvation within a piece
And I'm yearning for some changes vacations with inner peace
Niggas die for their respect but tell me what it's all worth.
Cuz I ain't never seen no pride take a ride when inside a hearse

Yeah I had a lot to prove when they didn't know me
I was different with the tension I go OD
Used to haunt me in my dreams yeah I got no sleep
But now don't even react cuz that's the old me
Niggas never change niggas never change
Lost so many friends cuz I ain't the same
They tell me that I've changed tell me that I've changed
But how y'all stay the same man it ain't the same

Why I'm so sensetive nigga
Been this way since a kid nigga
If you get offensive and I take offense to that nigga
I'll take a fist to that nigga
Imagine the pressure and stress how they measure success
By how less you get tested or pressed
So you stick out your chest then with every intention
To rid all the tension when shit get intense.
Fuck all the trouble that comes with an ego
Fuck being humble in front of you people
Fuckin you up if you Mumble we rumble
Arms stretched to greet you like it's nice to meet you
Keyboard warriors want go to war
Type so much till they thumbs sore
If u want less say one less
Here's one lesson you got one more
Must want more I don't hesitate
Fuck a stair down let it escalate
I address shit at your address and shit
Put some respect on it for I let it spray
Cuz I'll die for my name if you lie on my name
How could I live if I don't deal with you
On my grave what they'll say he died young
Left behind his son but he a real nigga
The pride in me resides from society pressuring me
Anxiety inside of me stemming from all the beef
Meditation serves as the medication servicing needs
My time is best when I invest in what only benefits me

I just can't live like this anymore
Niggas try and test me never learned to let it go
Thought I had to prove I was the realest but instead
The measure of how real I am was all inside my head
Never needed no one to confirm just who I am
As long those around me who I love know where I stand
Fuck their validation fuck the judgements fuck their plans
I'm the only one who determines my value as a man