Caves (I Hurt My Friends)

Been having nightmares way too long
Reliving every moment that I think went wrong
Kicking the people that held me up
Telling myself I got here with just a bit of luck
Spend another weekend on my own
When was the last time that I thought I should call home
It's been so long since I left town
Would they even have me back after I break down

Where's my mind
I'm falling out again
And I haven't know where I am
Since G-d knows when
I hurt my friends every now and then
Push them away till I'm alone again
I know I cant go on like this
Someone you want to forget not miss
I hurt my friends every now and then
Push them away till I'm alone again

Last week I cried over sticks of mozzarella
Only then did I realize all the stress I was under
I wonder all the people who said things will get better
Will you lie to my face like you like with your letters
No one wants to see another man become a ghost
But there's better ways to help then another Facebook post
If you really want to help
If you need to take and oath
Start with invites to events you host
I'm sick of trading one dark place for another
And seeing the same shadows on the wall
No out of these caves- only more fires
So I'll drown my mind in alcohol
Dull out all the edges till I lose all my complexity
Inward spiral down for miles till I find the end of me
How'd it get so bad even my families fuckin' scared of me
My sister keeps on calling saying maybe it's time for therapy
Asking for help is a pretty rare event for me
But sometimes the anxiety so bad that I can barely breathe
Body shakes
Lungs seize
No one cares
Look at me
Nobody gains clarity for free

Where's my mind
I'm falling out again
And I haven't know where I am
Since G-d knows when
I hurt my friends even now and then
Push them away till I'm alone again
I know I can't go on like this
Someone you want to forget not miss
I hurt my friends every now and then
Push them away till I'm alone again



Credits
Writer(s): Mark Macdonald
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