Transit

I tend to see something poetic in death
Because in fact there's nothing left of me I guess
Although it is probably my biggest fear
This fear is all, that I have left to feel
Now that the progress is delayed
I am stuck in a transit state

So long I tried to find sense
Mastering pretense
It's been years since control
Slipped out of my hands
Fear built a wall
Hate made it tall
A life buried in concrete

I never thought, that my good intentions will form bars
Keeping me locked in place
Leave me and shed no tear
Avert the view and let me break this sphere

Please tell me, it's moral
To end my sorrow

Erase my name, forget my face
Forget what life once blessed with grace
Don't mourn for me after my escape
Deliberately fixed in an early grave
Kill every memory of me
Pain will wage a war if you wait
And you'll be able to relate
You'll be stuck in a transit state

Naively thinking, I could
Push you away from me
I've made a mistake
And now it's too late
My suffering burns its trace in you
A painful transit I am to blame for

I accept what divides us
That I'm no longer to draw lines in the dust
And I face my inner lions
Before they devour the both of us

No more chances, no more rewinds
Saying sorry for one last time
I am the monster, you seemed to see
This darkness is a part of me
And when I go, I'll be at some place you can't see
I'll make sure, there's no one to miss me

No one to miss me