I Can't Be My Old Self Forever

What's it like to walk through rain
With nothing to cover your shame 'cause
My umbrella stays up even under a bridge

What's it like to wonder why
I do everything with you on my mind when
Everything I do is just my way to escape you

I've been told I've gone nowhere on my own
Well, we've just seen that I can't run from my own

Knowing that the truth already hurts but I won't stop this
Knowing you're the only one I'd lose ain't enough to stop me
Oh, I find it hard to leave you there
Knowing that the truth already hurts
Knowing that I've only just begun
Knowing that the truth already hurts

I never liked to win your games
Can't keep giving love when you keep on playing
They won't have a last move if I wake up and leave them

I've been told I've gone nowhere on my own
Well, we've both seen that I can't run from my own

Knowing that the truth already hurts but I won't stop this
Knowing you're the only one I'd lose ain't enough to stop me
Oh, I find it hard to leave you there
Knowing that the truth already hurts
Knowing that I've only just begun
Knowing that the truth already hurts

I can only be this way with you
There ain't nothing you can say or do
You can't pay me for myself so you
Know that I can't lose

Knowing the truth already hurts but I won't stop this
Knowing you're the only one I'd lose ain't enough to stop me
Knowing that the truth already hurts but I won't stop this
Knowing you're the only one I'd lose ain't enough to stop me
Oh, I find it hard to leave you there, no
Knowing that the truth already hurts
Knowing that I've only just begun
Knowing that the truth already hurts