This Addiction

The timing was perfect for me, bad for her, plus I'm sure
There were at least a dozen other factors
It's the same old story, y'all
The same one that's been passed down since time immemorial
She said she never stopped adorin me
There's just some feelings that she can't explore with me
At least for the time bein, I'm seein
My doom, losin my angel while at war with my demons
So, yeah, you mean a lot to me, but right now, you got me
Wishin I could get you out my head with a lobotomy
Late at night, can't fight this old feelin
Workin on healin my soul, but there's a hole in the ceilin
And these thoughts of you keep leakin in
I'm trying to understand this, but havin a hard time even believin it
Just when I thought we were closer than ever
All of a sudden, I guess it's over forever

Ya know, it's hard lovin her when she don't love you
But sometimes it's even harder when she do
Stuck in that F-word situation, can't kick it
Can't quit her, can't get rid of this addiction
I said it's hard lovin her when she don't love you
But sometimes it's even harder when she do
Stuck in that F-word situation, can't kick it
Can't quit her, can't get rid of this addiction

I miss you a lot, I wish we could talk
Pain in my brain and I wish it would stop
It's such a shame to maintain as if it is not
Plaguing my every thought, our last kiss in the dark
Maybe I'm missin the mark, but I believe
That everything that you are is just right for me
I just wish this would work out, the sooner the better
Cuz right now I feel like I could wait forever
And that ain't no productive way to go
But the pain is seductive, it takes control
And leaves me feelin unrehearsed and untrue
Prepared for the worst, this curse ain't somethin I can undo
And I guess that makes me strong, but
What good is that when everything's constantly goin wrong
If you're listenin to this song, I know you know who you are
And I know you also know I love you